The year 2020 is just beginning and I’ve decided to dive into starting a blog after months and months of procrastinating. I had so many reservations! I’m not creative enough; I don’t have enough expertise in any activity to write intelligently about it; no one will want to read what I have to say; mediocrity is my shadow, who has time for that?? Yet I kept feeling this urge to make it happen. This little voice kept pointing out that my reservations were actually excuses that I was allowing to hold me back and I needed to do something about it.
Well, here I am, in sterotypical introvert mode, feeling anxious and second guessing every key stroke. I spent the last 3 days trying to think of what my first blog post should be. What should I say? What does everyone else want me to write? It’s supposed to be memorable and mind-blowing, right? How in the world was I going to come up with something like that? *sigh* It’s been an aggravating 3 days.
So today I sat with my son at lunch and went on and on about this dilemma. He listened politely, but didn’t have any suggestions. I defeatedly put my chin in my hand, blew out a deep breath and said, “I don’t know…maybe I’m overthinking it.”
That’s it! That’s completely it! I overthink everything. I always have, and if I do that long enough, I end up convincing myself that it’s ridiculous to even entertain the idea of being successful. Pfew! Good thing I dodged that bullet!
But enough is enough. I’m finally at peace with being an introvert and this year, I’m determined to not let that limit me. I’ll check in soon with an update on how that’s going. 2020…here we go!