Me? Going Stir Crazy?
As an introvert, I never, ever imagined that I would be going stir crazy, stuck inside my house and wanting to just get out and go somewhere where there’s people! Not even during the Covid shut down did I feel cooped up. In fact, I was very content to shelter in place and I loved the decelerated pace.
But last week was different.
Backstory!
My friend and I decided we should take advantage of the time we had off work (we both work for the local school district) and get back in shape. Great idea, right?
This past April, we started a Couch To 5K program. I was hesitant at first. The last time we did this, I had a broken foot that I was sure was nothing…until I saw the X-rays. Obviously we had to quit after only a few weeks in. I ended up walking around in an oh-so-fashionable air cast boot for two and a half months! It was unpleasant, but at least I could get up and around.
Let’s Do This
I knew I needed to get on a path to a healthier lifestyle. So every morning, Monday thru Friday, we met at the local high school track and did our running and walking intervals. Things were going great! I went from almost passing out and throwing up after 90 seconds of jogging to making it through jogging 5+ minutes!
About 3-4 weeks in, I started feeling some pain and discomfort in my hip. So I did what I always do. I ignored it. I was finally starting to see some success! I wasn’t going to let a little muscle strain stop me. But over the next couple weeks, that annoying little pain turned into a monster. After the second time I had to walk (with a limp) rather than jog for our workout, I agreed to have it looked at.
Stress Fracture?!
Well, an orthopedic doctor, an X-ray, an MRI, and a hip specialist later, I found out I have a non-operative stress fracture on the compression side of the femoral neck of my hip. Yay for no surgery, but now I’m on crutches and ordered to be completely non-weight bearing until at least my follow up visit, which isn’t for another 2 weeks.
Ugh! I’m blaming it on the Couch to 5K app. Totally. It’s a curse. And wow, I just realized that was a lot of backstory.
Getting To The Point
My point is, I’m relegated to either my bed or the couch and it’s driving me completely insane! Like the title says…Who’da Thunk It? Here I am, the self-dubbed Card Carrying Introvert with a legitimate “sit-on-your-butt-and-do-nothing” order, and I can’t handle it. I have never wanted to vaccuum up 3 cats worth of shedded hair or scrub the shower as much as I do right now. Can you believe that?
(Sidenote: I am blessed with an awesome family that is taking care of all the cooking and cleaning right now!)
But more than that, I am dying to get out of this house! To be able to walk from our van to the baseball field where my son is doing what he loves. To go to Kings Island and run from coaster to coaster. To traverse the bumps and slopes of my backyard so I can join the neighbors on their deck and eat oreo cheesecake. Everyday there’s not a minute that goes by that I don’t feel like a worthless, guilt ridden blob. Plus, I’m putting every bit of weight that I’ve lost in the last 2 months right back on.
Won’t Be Stir Crazy Forever
I have to keep reminding myself that it will pass and it is only temporary, but this…this going out, spending time in the outside world, and missing being around people…it’s so foreign to me. I don’t quite understand it.
Even introverts have limits to their unsocial nature. Who’da Thunk It?
Howdy! This post could not be written much
better! Reading through this post reminds me of my previous roommate!
He continually kept talking about this. I most certainly will send this post
to him. Pretty sure he’s going to have a good read.
Thank you for sharing!